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𝙾𝙿𝙴𝙽.








𝙾𝙿𝙴𝙽 𝟸𝟺/𝟽.
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[personal profile] thefreak 2024-11-17 11:48 pm (UTC)(link)
( eddie has always had trouble with patience. even before falling in with gator, he's never been able to sit idly by while others are having fun. this...isn't fun, though. it leaves eddie squirming and wishing he could intervene. he doesn't think billy deserves this.

there's a feeling that slithers up eddie until it clenches his throat and makes his spit start tasting like bile. the tenderness gator chooses to use seems at odds with gator's intentions. it's like he knows this is how to hurt billy the most. and that doesn't sit well with eddie.

he has to sit on his hands so he doesn't do something stupid like reach out for billy and try to insert himself between them. somehow, he thinks that will just make this worse.

when gator asks how they do it, eddie tears his eyes away from gator, looking down at the floor. this is so stupid. they never even broached the topic of exclusivity, so why does he feel like shit for sleeping with both of them? especially when they were sleeping with each other behind his back? but he doesn't trust himself to speak up, not sure his voice would even be able to form words right now, so he sits and takes it, wishing more than anything that he could trade places just so billy didn't have to endure this right now.
)
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[personal profile] kegstandking 2024-11-18 02:28 am (UTC)(link)
[ Billy had thought Eddie would be the one to say it. He's not usually one to hold back his words, and if you really get him going, that mouth can go a mile a minute. But he's dead silent, and Billy finds something bitter and angry building inside him again. So he tilts his head to give Gator better access to his neck, sighs at every kiss pressed to his skin. And when he finally pulls his thumb out of Billy's mouth to kiss him hard, Billy bites back, moaning.

I didn't hear an answer. Billy gives Eddie another chance to speak up, but they're both quiet. And besides that? He could really use a good fucking slap right now.

But Gator just waves him off, so Billy stands, taking a few steps back, watching. Something in Gator's face softens when he looks at Eddie, a crack in the armor, genuine hurt that Billy's never seen before. When he speaks, he doesn't know if he's twisting the knife in Eddie, in Gator, or in himself - maybe all three.
]

I fuck him. [ He turns his head to glance at Eddie. ] Usually I can't get him to shut the fuck up about takin' my dick, but I guess he's shy now that his boyfriend's here.
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[personal profile] thefreak 2025-02-03 04:49 pm (UTC)(link)
( there's a sour taste in eddie's mouth. he feels trapped with both gator and billy here. he wasn't sure what he was expecting. this was bound to happen eventually, the three of them coming together, colliding like asteroids being pulled by earth's gravity. when billy speaks up, eddie feels a wave of shame washing over him. he should have been the one to speak, but his throat is dry, and he fears that if he opens his mouth, only the most pitiful croak will slip out.

billy's last words, calling gator his boyfriend, spark a flash of something else, and he wants to lash out. but what good will that do? isn't that exactly what gator wants? to pit them against each other? )


Fuck off.

( it comes out like a snap, as if eddie is a feral animal ready to pounce. he might as well be, with the conflicting emotions boiling inside him. )

Yeah, he fucks me. Are you happy now? Did you get what you were looking for?

( he realizes he means it in more than one way. did gator get what he wanted from eddie? is it over now? to his horror, the thought causes him more panic than the initial worry of gator finding out did. )
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[personal profile] kegstandking 2025-02-03 06:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Fuck off. Oh, now Eddie has something to fucking say? Billy sneers. ]

Would that I could, sweetheart.

[ His gaze returns back to Gator, and he can see the rage building in him, the way he's trying to control it, trying to hold back. Billy knows the feeling well, and it only serves as a reminder of how he'd failed. Even Gator can hold back when he wants to, but Billy? He'd lashed out at Eddie so quickly. He's an animal, a danger to everyone around him. No wonder Eddie had gone looking elsewhere.

I should kill both of you, Gator says, and it makes Billy laugh. Because should means he won't. He won't even hit him - probably because he knows that's what Billy wants. It's what makes sense to him.

He shakes his head, sniffing hard. If Gator doesn't want him around? Fine. Eddie sure as shit won't either. Maybe this is it, a sign to finally get the fuck out of dodge, skip town and figure out how he'll afford the rest later. He's been here too long and it's brought him nothing but pain.

Billy doesn't say anything, not until Gator yanks him by his hair, forcing him to gaze into those dark eyes. His own are puffy and red, only making the blue stand out that much more. His nostrils flare, and he clenches his jaw. I could've loved you. Yeah, he could've. But he didn't.
]

Yes sir.

[ What else is there to say? What they have - what they had - it was never going to be love. He goes to Gator to hurt, to bleed, to be broken - to think that leads to love is for fools. He's watched his father do it - break women, bit by bit, until they're obedient. He was never going to be good enough to be anything but another bitch on a chain.

It doesn't matter anymore. He's not even good enough for that anymore. Billy curls his hands into fists, watching as Gator speaks to Eddie next, the way he rears back to hit him - and despite it all, he feels the urge to lunge forward, to get between the two of them. You can hit me, but don't you fucking dare hurt him. God, it's sick. He's sick. He needs to get out now, drive until he can't keep his eyes open, something.
]

Are we done here?
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[personal profile] thefreak 2025-02-27 04:44 pm (UTC)(link)
( it doesn't take long for panic to set in. it's almost like eddie's entire world is crumbling apart, all because, what, he had been played by both gator and billy? well, that's not entirely true because he has been with both of them multiple times.

love. is that what he felt for either man? he thinks it could have been.

he's in too deep, and he knows it. maybe it's for the best that things end before eddie gets irrevocably hurt. as if he isn't already hurtling toward that point. )


Guess so.

( he sounds resigned, tired, empty inside. part of him wants to fight for this, but what's even worth fighting for? if eddie weren't in the picture, what would billy and gator be? they don't need him, despite whatever gator claims about love.

when gator looks like he's about to hit eddie, eddie flinches. maybe the pain would be better than whatever this is he feels. he retreats further into the trailer, collapsing onto the couch, and waits, arms folded across his chest. fuck this shit. what he needs now is to get incredibly high and forget. maybe if he gets high enough, all of this will feel like nothing short of a blurry memory. )


That's it, then, huh?

( he can't stop himself before the words start spilling out. )

Fine. Nice knowing you both. Good luck finding someone else to get your weed from now, 'cause it sure as hell ain't gonna be from me.

( is he testing his luck? probably. but both of them know how mouthy he can be, and if they are going to do this, to really end this, he wants to make sure there are no loose ends they can tug on. )
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[personal profile] kegstandking 2025-02-27 06:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Billy is trying his very hardest to stand firm, to not fall right back to pieces on the floor. There's so much rage in him it's hard to even stay still, but lashing out at Eddie is what got him here, and lashing out at Gator will put him in the ground. So he shivers at Gator's laughter, but stays planted where he stands.

He doesn't care about being protected. He's leaving and never turning back, never wants to see either of their stupid fucking faces ever again, both those pairs of big brown eyes that'll haunt him forever, wondering, what if? What if he he hadn't fucked all of this up? Gator -- Gator's fucked up, worse than he is, he thinks. Billy's pretty sure that's why he's so drawn to him. Being with him is punishing. But Eddie -- Eddie's sweet. Too sweet for either of them. And it's really starting to hit Billy just how much he really did like him.

He flinches hard as Gator fires his gun again, clenching his jaw. It's hard to look like he doesn't care about any of this when he's trembling, staring Gator down as he points his pistol at him. It'd be so easy for Gator to end this now. Blow his brains out, hide the evidence - his family would probably see his disappearance as a long overdue blessing.

As the Glock goes from being aimed at him to at Eddie, Billy feels faint. Sick to his stomach, too, guts tying themselves in knots. His palms are clammy, hands shaking at his sides, and it doesn't surprise him in the slightest that Gator's holding a threat over both of their heads. It's always been a power play with him - that's what gets him off. It's no wonder he's been fucking a couple of misfits who have trouble staying on the right side of the law. He swallows, and his voice feels so quiet under the ringing in his ears.
]

Name it, then. I'll do it.

[ And then neither of them will ever see or hear from him ever again. He'll leave them both behind just like the rest of this good for nothing town. It's a shame he didn't a lot sooner. ]