[ gator can sense eddie's panic because he's also feeling it. his chest is tight, like it's caving in. gator takes in a breath, and he's frustrated. not with eddie β hell, it's not like it was his fault. numbers and phones and texts. it's all too much at times, but with eddie, it isn't enough. he likes him, maybe a little too much. maybe it's something else β ]
it's gonna be alright. he'll meet you, but he's not gonna be soft. you gotta do this. he won't let you go if you don't. like i said, it ain't gonna be you anyway.
(he won't let you go if you don't. he has to trust that gator knows what's in his best interests. it doesn't sit right with eddie that gator might be the one receiving the punishment, but if it's worse for them both if eddie doesn't attend then he's going to have to suck it up for one night. )
okay, um. can you, i don't know. teach me how to pray?
[ gator considers what's happening, thinks of it from an angle that's pragmatic. he'll take his punishment, if it comes, but as far as roy's concerned β there's unpredictability, a fine line between benevolent and violence. it's not like eddie will get it, but gator β ]
yeah, baby. just hold everyone's hand and lower your head. dad takes care of the rest.
( sure, eddie's terrified out of his fucking mind, and he thinks gator means to shield eddie by giving up himself, but that doesn't mean he has to sit by and like it. )
so long as i don't have to say anything. not sure i could make it sounds genuine.
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[ gator can sense eddie's panic because he's also feeling it. his chest is tight, like it's caving in. gator takes in a breath, and he's frustrated. not with eddie β hell, it's not like it was his fault. numbers and phones and texts. it's all too much at times, but with eddie, it isn't enough. he likes him, maybe a little too much. maybe it's something else β ]
it's gonna be alright.
he'll meet you, but he's not gonna be soft.
you gotta do this. he won't let you go if you don't.
like i said, it ain't gonna be you anyway.
thank you sir
okay, um. can you, i don't know. teach me how to pray?
amen.
yeah, baby.
just hold everyone's hand and lower your head.
dad takes care of the rest.
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( sure, eddie's terrified out of his fucking mind, and he thinks gator means to shield eddie by giving up himself, but that doesn't mean he has to sit by and like it. )
so long as i don't have to say anything. not sure i could make it sounds genuine.